life of a teacher

On the end of summer and not hyping up firsts

I do this thing with birthdays where in my mind, it has to be the birthday person’s most special day everrrrrr.  In concept, that sounds great.  But making that happen? Totally impossible.  You can’t make every.single.birthday the most wonderful day ever. The pressure is crazy.

Unfortunately, I do the same for firsts. I get all excited and happy and expectant and I end up psyching myself out to the point where I just don’t want to do whatever it was I was looking forward to.

So this year, instead of focusing on Monday being THE FIRST DAY BACK TO SCHOOL! I’m tricking myself into thinking that it’s just the second week back and it’s just another day. Yes, there will now be students and yes, I will now be teaching, but it’s just another day.

Except Monday is also Ellexa’s first day of “big girl school” (she attended pre-school at the same learning center she went to daycare).  It’s her FIRST! DAY! OF SCHOOL! So I’m psyching myself out about that.  Especially because our mornings are already so hectic and adding another school to the mix will definitely be testing our time constraints.  I can’t not go to my child’s first day of school and walk her into her classroom and stay for a bit.  I just can’t! So I’m praying it all works out and goes smoothly and she doesn’t cry and Elliah doesn’t have a meltdown at pre-school and I’m not epically late to work.

And oh my gosh, did I mention Caleb started 7th grade this year? He shot up and slimmed down and is all grown up.

And Monika.  She’s a junior.  A JUNIOR.  What the hell, man???

I’m gonna go make me a tea and cry in a corner.  Forget firsts! Bah.

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On summer snacking

I’m currently sitting on my couch eating chips and pecans out of a bowl that I’ve hidden under my throw blanket so the girls don’t see it because they will inevitably wipe me out of said snacks within the minute.  Horrible, selfish, justified.

You know how they say that teenage athletes will eat though your pantry and fridge in minutes? Well, my toddlers will too.  Growth spurts, gotta love them.  Except my kids are currently obsessed with waffles and marshmallow cereal.  I can make the most delicious spaghetti (their favorite food) and lately they’ll pass it up for some good old fashioned cereal.  I’ve been giving in because usually, they eat pretty healthy.  Also, because it’s summer and rules don’t count in summer.  Especially when we all go back to reality in less than a month. *insert crying emoji here*

I wish I had Oreo cookies at home.

I’ve had some pretty awesome thoughts about some things I want to implement next year year, but have refused to think too much about them so they’ve just been jotted down.  I refuse to acknowledge that this is almost over.  I know I need to start waking up earlier so it won’t be a total shock on my body, but I’ll get to that eventually.  I also need to find some cute, comfortable, affordable heels to teach in, so that’s on the list.

Ah, lists.  I have so enjoyed living without them (not really, but I have enjoyed not needing to follow them to a T).

Anyway, back to eating my feelings snacking and avoiding what’s right around the corner. Enjoy your summer, people!

 

 

Friday thoughts on a Wednesday

Why is that the people with the most annoying voices talk the loudest?

Why is it that the people with the most hateful thoughts have the most to say?

Why is it not Friday yet?!

We have a short week due to Charro Days so tomorrow we get to leave at 1 and then we’re off on Friday so I’m dreaming of not having to be up early, but I’ll have to keep dreaming because I need to take a trip to McAllen Friday morning which means I’ll have to wake up early anyway, but at least it won’t be to work, so there’s that.  So YAY! Friday!

Saturday is the Charro Days 5K which I have been looking forward to and training for for weeks now.  Super pumped about that!

I need to find a new goal/race/motivator to look forward to once this is over so I can keep up with my fitness achievements.

I emailed Caleb’s teachers this morning to see how he has been doing in class (we’ve hit a few road bumps lately) and got nothing but awesome comments back.  Super happy about that!

This week has been a good one.  I think part of it has to do with getting so much negativity out of my system and venting about stuff that had been bugging me for awhile.  I know I say that posting here and running are my therapy, but sometimes you just need to verbally let it all out and that release is so.damn.freeing.

So there.   Happy Wednesday, people!  I hope the rest of today flies by *fingers  crossed*

 

 

Friday thoughts & OOTW

Teenagers are exhausting,

Kids can be unappreciative little assholes sometimes.

Coming home to a clean house does wonders for an anxious mind.

I will be rewarding myself with a new something or other when I reach Day 15 of this training.

Squats suck, but muscle memory is awesome.

My hair needs…work.

I was feeling so cute last weekend, too.  Then Monday came about and my hair decided to just turn into an oily, shapeless mess.  Back to wishing it was short and black.

Tomorrow is Day 6 of my training.  I’m supposed to run 4 miles.  That makes me chuckle a little every time I think about it.  I’m actually looking forward to it.

Caleb has a game out of town tomorrow.  Regionals.  Hoping to make it to state.

Monika’s boyfriend just asked me if I blogged about him when he started dating her.  “Did you write “Some idiot is dating my daughter now’?” Inexplicably so, no, I did not blog about him.

Which then got me to thinking that I don’t blog like I used to anymore.  I mean, your daughter dating is something I thought I would blog about, no?  I hate the word blog.  Post? Entry? Journal?  Bueller?

Anyway, my brain is fried so I’m out.

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Monday was gross.  I need to lose weight.

My hair needs a trim and wearing it scrunched just doesn’t work anymore. I love the outfit tho.

Basic teacher look.  Comfy, bright, cute.

Love my hair, but this dress doesn’t work with flats and this jacket is way too big already.

Don’t call this a resolution.

At the risk of jinxing myself, I’m going to go ahead and say that 2016 is off to a great start!

In true list-loving, typical blogger form, here are my lists for 2016.

Things I want to do

  • Make it a point to see my friends more often.  I know we’re all grown and super busy, but this is ridiculous.  I haven’t seen some of you in months and we live in the same city!
  • Run a half marathon.  My little heart wants this oh-so-much.
  • By that same token, exercise on a regular basis  Stick with my runs and do my squats.
  • Post on here on a regular basis.  I used to enjoy blogging so much and it was so therapeutic for me.  I need that back.
  • Stop coveting material things and enjoy what I have to the fullest.  I read quite a few interior design blogs and every time I click on a link to an item, it’s a bajillion zillion dollars and it makes me want to kick my sofa.  Instead, I want to revamp what I have and make it work for me.
  • Be nicer to the kids.  I’ve been stressed a little more than usual lately and it’s made me a very yelly-short tempered mother.
  • Take a trip to Disney.  No explanation needed.
  • Keep going to concerts.  See above.
  • Keep in touch with my extended family.  I saw/reconnected with a lot of my cousins at Monika’s quince and I want to keep that communication going.

Habits I want to keep

  • Really, truly planning lessons ahead.  Not just planning with a general idea or concept in mind, but planning down to the nitty gritty details. I started the school year doing this and then eased up a bit towards winter break and regretted it immediately.  I love structure and control.
  • Posting/documenting my Outfits of the Week.  Doing this kept me motivated to get creative with my wardrobe rather than resorting to the same old tired outfits, which in turn kept me from yelling “I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!!!” every other day.
  • Removing my makeup everysinglenight.  I know.  This is something I should’ve always been in the habit of doing, but let’s face it, I’m lazy.  However, I have been doing it more often and will do it every night because my skin ain’t young and lustrous anymore =(
  • Having breakfast daily.  It helps keep my energy levels up and my eating habits on track.
  • Keeping my caffeine consumption in check.  I remember I used to drink about 12 cups a day at my old job.  Now 2 is all I really need to get me going.

Habits I want to break:

  • Unhealthy Snacking.
  • Putting off working out because it’s cold/hot/I’m too tired/hormonal.
  • Having late dinners.  I always feel like crap right after and way into the next day.
  • Eating justhisonepieceofchocolate because I’m having a bad day.
  • This one’s going to be tough since it’s ingrained in my nature.

So there you have it.  I totally procrastinated, strung together list.  Here’s to a great year!

First #ootw of 2016. #whatIwore #ootd #teachinginstyle #teachersofinstagram

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Introvert+Truth+Teamwork+Positivity+Downtime

This introvert needs some alone time.

I’m taking tomorrow off.  I feel sensory overload.  People, noise, my surroundings.  I need to get away from it all.

I need downtime.  Quiet.  Peace.  Even if it’s just for a few moments.  I need to be completely alone.

I know some people don’t get it.  I know some people think it’s selfish.  I know some think it’s an excuse for time off.  To the latter two types I say “eff you and your judgy bullshit.”

The older I get, the more I get to know myself and the clearer it becomes.  There are some things I absolutely need in order to function:  prayer, plenty of sleep, lots of water, exercise, organization, a planner, and downtime.  These things are crucial in order for me to not have a breakdown and bitch out everyone in sight.

I also need to work on my diet because PMS gets the best of me and I eat everything in sight knowing damn well that I’ll feel like shit a few minutes later and for days to come.  The more I pay attention to how food affects me, the more I realize that sugar makes me sick.  It makes me antsy and irritable and lethargic.  Red meat makes me feel bloated and gross. Bread and milk totally screw up my system.  And yet. I had ALL OF THAT today.  And while it was savory and I justified it with PMS, I’m already feeling sluggish and  it didn’t even help my mood at all.

I need to get back to running in the mornings.  Being up before everyone, the quiet, it made me feel at peace even if for a bit.  I need to eat better.  Because with as much as I’ve been busting my ass on the pavement, the scale keeps going up.  I need to stop cheating myself in order to see results.  I know all this, and still, it’s hard.

Because when students don’t listen and you answer the same question eleventy million times and the kids you want to help refuse it and the ones you thought were improving fall, it’s so easy to turn to a chocolate bar and say “I deserve this after the day I’ve had” but I don’t.  What I do deserve is a talk with a team that has my back and understands.  And a run to burn out the negativity.  And time with my kids who seem to be growing up in the blink of an eye.  And I have all that.  Now all I need is my me-time.  ❤

On time and OOTW

When I worked in sales and advertising, my weeks always seemed to fly by since we worked on weekly deadlines and quotas.  It was something I hated and loved at the same time because while the weekend approached that much quicker, I felt like I never had time to savor the week.

This year of teaching has been very similar in that aspect.  While our grading periods are broken up into 6 week time frames, our team pretty much structures lessons a week at a time, making the week fly by.

Add to that daily pick-ups from practices and physical therapy sessions and weekly errands and weekends become treasured respites that end much too quickly.

This weekend was a blur.  The weather was gorgeous.  I snuck in a short jog on Sunday and it was awesome, but something knocked me on my butt and I napped for 3 hours.  It was weird.  I’m not used to napping anymore, let alone for that long of a time. I feel like I wasted my weekend.

In OOTW news, you should know that I mistook last week for Red Ribbon week and rocked a Superman shirt on Wednesday for Superhero Day.  I got crazy stares all day.  *shrug*  I feel pretty “meh” about all the outfits except for Thursday’s.  The bun continues to confuse me, but I love the way it looks in this picture.  Next week should be a humorous recap considering Red Ribbon week is actually, really finally here.

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