Self-counsciousness and Kick-assery

First ever two-a-day workout done.  I feel pretty damn good.  I’ll probably be dying tomorrow, but for now I feel invincible.

But you know, every time I post something on any social media platform, I feel judged.  I feel silly.  I feel like people will tire of reading posts about me boosting myself up.  It takes every ounce of confidence in me to post outfits or workouts or selfies or teaching successes.

And it sucks.  And it’s stupid.  Because honestly, you don’t have to read this if you don’t want to.  You can scroll right past my posts on Facebook or Instagram.  Hell, if it really bothers you that much, you can delete me all together.  And if you look just to find something to criticize, well then “hi, hater!” knock yourself out!

Because this is me.  And I’ve worked pretty damn hard to get myself to where I’m at now.  Back in my early 20s, I used to post for validation.  I used to have a debilitating need to feel liked and accepted and part of the crowd.  Now though?  I’d be lying of I said I didn’t struggle with it.  Sometimes I sit on a post for hours thinking about what people will say or think. But I always end up hitting “post” because those who matter, don’t mind.

I guess what I’m saying with all of this is that I feel stronger.  Sticking to a workout plan, staying true to my vision of myself, and sticking to my gut with what works for me as a teacher has all made me feel much muchier.  Shout out to all those of you who get the reference.  And for those of you who post all your success stories and tidbits, thank you for being an inspiration.  ❤

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